Thursday, October 30, 2008

What To Do On A Rainy Day

Sleep. I feel sleepy all the time when it rains. I cannot concentrate on my books and study hearing these sounds of rain drops falling on the roof. I just want to curl up with love and listen to all those distracting sounds together.

What a disaster, he is working on a rainy Saturday and I am all alone by myself. Maybe I should go to the mall and get lost among strangers, beautiful clothes, delicious smells and hi-tech devices. Even shoe shopping does not excite me on a rainy day. So, what should I do on a rainy day?

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Boca Juice For Men

I know a man who uses and sometimes abuses it. He is over 50 and believe me, he looks like he is 34! I don’t question that he has done several liposuctions, hair transplantation and god knows what else he has done to look younger. But what I don’t understand is his girlfriend is 50 with 3 grown up kids my age. I would expect him to date at least someone in her thirties, but why so much pain and effort- to date someone your age? Does not make any sense! Why men do that?

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Circumcision- Male and Female, Is It Good Or Bad

I wouldn’t want to date a man who was not circumcised. I saw one of those ant eaters and honestly don’t want that experience ever again. Imagine what happens to those ant eaters when the owner reaches elderly age. Ok, enough.

What really confused me is female circumcisions in one of those wild tribes.
The whole purpose of that is for women not to experience simple pleasures in this life. Absurd. Ridiculous. While men taking advantages of circumcision, another men are taking advantage of women circumcising them. Crazy world.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Dating A Celebrity

Yes, it is hard. Yes, it is too much of pressure. Yes, it is all about them and you are just someone dating a celebrity. He is very handsome man, takes me everywhere he goes ( cannot tell his name for confidentiality reasons), very talented and very good father. Stop. Father- all his free time he wants to spend with his daughter, I’m only on the third place. I don’t like it. I want to be the first thing in his life.

You cannot change the past but you can change your future and it seems like I am ready to make those changes and not sacrifice myself for his name, gifts and money. I know how to eliminate other women in his life, but his child, his precious blood I cannot deal with that.
It has been going from month to another and he seems pretty comfortable with our positions and I don’t know how to end this up.

Friday, October 24, 2008

When To Introduce Your Love To Co-Workers

All of us make little silly mistakes sometimes. I am a big exception- I make little silly mistakes all the time. Like introducing my boyfriend to my colleagues. Being a teacher was a hard job in the aspect that you have to be an example not only to your children and some close people, but to your students and other professors. When I have introduced my third boyfriend within two and a half period of time I started feeling uncomfortable. Not that I deliberately was bringing them in to my department everybody to meet, but there were so many reasons they had to come and see me at work during breaks.

So now, one month passes by and guess what- I have a new boyfriend. I would love not allow him to visit me at work under any circumstances, but yesterday he said he wants to cook and bring me the food for my lunch. I said that I was having lunch with my colleagues, but he wants to bring it another day. I don’t know how he has so much time on his hands, I guess it’s one of the advantages of being self-employed. I still have a problematic question when revealing the truth at work, soon or later they will find out. Maybe I should stop dating at all or stop being too picky and dropping guys so soon.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Greediness- is it possible to change it

It must be frustrating for any girl to never receive a single gift from her boyfriend. Many beautiful girls think men are obligated to shower them with gifts all the time. In my case I wasn’t expecting expensive gifts or surprise trips to places, but rather some attention- meaning opening the doors, asking me what I want for breakfast, etc; then, after six month of dating him I started feeling anxiety if he will ever give me anything, at least a post-card.

He is not a poor man and he constantly buys himself gifts, why not me?!
Is it in his genes, bringing up gap or just personal beliefs? I don’t know, and I’m trying to cure him from that giving him a lot of little gifts one in a while. I never forget our monthly anniversary, and take him to the nice restaurant. I don’t know if his disease is terminal or curable, but I will keep trying. I might be wrong and it’s better when you don’t expect anything or least. That way you get all you wanted and even more.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Do Men Like Independent Women?

I hear a lot from men that they like independent women, they respect them and would prefer an independent woman as their partner. I don’t like the word “partner” when it is used toward the loved one, especially lady. I imagine a tough business woman in the suit, without any emotions and cold as ice. She will do anything to get what she wants. Is that what you want, men?

I don’t think so. I do believe men still have that need and desire to care and provide for his woman. He was a collector, hunter, fisher, etc; that is why I see so many pictures of men next to their catch and trophy. Everybody is tired of those pictures, just women and particularly men forget that they want to demonstrate that they can provide for his woman by those type of pictures. So it seems contradictory to tell that you want an independent woman while your pictures are sending different message. There are some levels of independency that men would appreciate and respect, just women overdid when they were fighting for gender rights. Men feel needed and proud of themselves when they can take care of their women, so I think
total independence of women is not always the best thing for both of us.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Can We Ever Leave Our Past In The Past

For some people it is the hardest thing to do. Like my current boyfriend. I find pictures of his ex-s, their personal items and just their souls flying around. Very weird and unpleasant feeling. When our past becomes past? I think when we meet our future, at least with me. This trick always works on me- I try to find someone new in order to forget someone old. And then even present becomes past. It is not an easy thing to be a sugarbabe.

You have to learn control your feelings and be ready to move on any second. I think of a flight attendant girl when I talk about my life or better say lifestyle. I have to be ready to go to nay part of the world at a moment’s notice. I cannot have PMS days, I have to look best at any times and perform multiple functions at the same time, but the hardest thing- to deal with my partners’ past all the time and never think about mine. I believe one day I will also meet a man who will leave his past behind when he will see me.

Hypnosis, Does It Really Work?

It is year 2008 now and after some time it will be very far past, and since the time hypnosis has been discovered, to effect the part of our brain responsible for sleep and subconscious decisions many attempts have been made to hypnotize the greatest people throughout the world. Many women and men tried and still do that to make the other part to fell in love with them or do some actions against their will. There are many opinions that most of the terrorist attacks have been committed by people being hypnotized some time earlier.

I knew a person who I thought was hypnotized by a man she got married with. At the beginning she didn’t like him at all. I have to tell you, she was gorgeous, yes, more than just beautiful. And he was a person who we can say an accountant type, nobody notices him and anything about his life. I have no idea how she got married with him. Some might argue with me telling how about great personality, money or just being nice, he could conquer her with that. I’m sorry, but I have to tell you that this love story ended very sad. She committed a suicide after couple month of marriage I cannot think anything else than hypnosis, and it is very dangerous when you do it to play with person’s feeling.

Friday, October 17, 2008

My God Is Flying Spaghetti Monster, What About You?

I think we should talk about religion today. Why? Just because everybody is talking about it nowadays. And I am so tired of people who are religious. It is funny, so absurd to me that they confidently say what will happen to us after we die. Then they should know what will happen tomorrow, if they don’t know then they are just charlatans because supposedly they know life after death. But thinking independently- is there life after death? Nobody ever came back, so we don’t know.

Let’s take Jesus, he was a great man, son of a carpenter and sacrificed himself for his belief. But he is still a man for me, that is it. I can’t remember now when religion started being politics, I have to go back to my history class, middle school. I have a friend who is Jehovah witness and she was trying to convert me to the same religion, sorry, my mistake, it’s not even a religion, a sect, I know even funnier sect- Mormons. Come on , he saw the writing in his hat and made a big deal out of it. That guy was hilarious, but what wonders me more is people who believe in that kind of nonsense. I know I might turn many people against me after I wrote this, but I don’t care anymore, I think people like me should do something about it.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Bloody Knife

All relationships usually start romantically and pure. Mine started with a lot of blood, swelling and head aches. I met a surgeon. He was excellent, tall and handsome. All you want from a man, but not from your surgeon. I didn’t want him to look inside of my mouth and pull my wisdom tooth out. Yes he was a facial surgeon. After some time dating him and having our first kiss I still felt uncomfortable thinking about that he pulled my tooth, and I was always thinking how he felt kissing me, if he thinks about my tooth.

Funny and silly, I know, but I can’t do anything about it and it keeps bothering me even now, after I broke up with him. I think that was the reason I couldn’t continue the relationship with him. If we only met in different circumstances, I think we would have a future. Neither I wouldn’t be able to date my hairdresser, my lawyer ( partially because I try to sue anyone I can- I have a lot of issues), and my best friend- because he knows too much about me, especially the part which my boyfriend shouldn’t know. At the end, it seems to me- I have nobody to date.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Let Me See You Strip

Yes, they are called Australia’s hottest export. After paying $60 for the show and $20 for their picture I was sitting excited and had some cash in my hands if they come over to my table and dance right in front of me. I think there is a stereotype about public that goes to men strip clubs- they are old, ugly and single women whom nobody wants to be with anymore. So my girlfriend and I (young and very beautiful) decided to change that opinion in society and went to the “Thunder from down under” show.

I know many macho men who think that men deserve respect regardless they provide for family or not, but after that show I totally lost respect for men, at least for the half of them. I wouldn’t want my husband, brother or son provide that way for his family. As everything in our world - demand creates supply, so they must be a result of hunger that women had. Then, it’s not all true that men are visual and women are auditory, women are visual too.

What did I do with the cash I had in my hands? Nothing. When one of those Australian strippers came to our table and let me touch him, I tried to feel some muscle in his arms and guess what- nothing. His arm was softer than mine. Was totally unacceptable.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Is There A Such Thing As Non-beneficial Relationships

Being a student is hard, especially if you are combining full-time school and full-time dating. Sometimes I think it would be more beneficial for me if men I date would teach me some of my classes, not only giving me gifts and pay for my school. Am I becoming greedy like an old lady from a story about gold fish which would do any of her wishes and one day she wished to be a goddess of the world. She gets nothing at the end and comes back to her initial state.

I’ve got to remember that part, in order not to forget and get as much as I can and give back the same. Can we all have relationships without asking something back? It does not fit the situation I’m in right now. I am young and in blossom and I don’t think men will give me something more than a polite smile when my beauty will fade one day and I’ll still be single. Men as well as women try to get the best they can while they have youth or later they can still catch up with money. So why people blame young and beautiful girls for getting all the best men in the world? I think it is just a process called natural selection.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

The Best Love Story

In the nomination of best love story we can award probably one of the youngest guys I have ever dated. Konstantin. He was only two years older than me and was very tall and handsome. Don’t make it fool you, he had his own company at the age of 18. Young men don’t have experience but they have romance which women love. He brought me 14 red heart shaped balloons for our first Valentine’s Day. It was a beauty contest and I could see him from the stage among all people in the city hall. Sitting with his love balloons. It was one of the best gifts I have ever received. I even did not get upset I didn’t win the beauty pageant, but we spent a beautiful evening.

The next morning I had to go to school and he stayed. He lived on 24th floor and while I got out from the building and went to the street he did something very special. He knew I would look at the window and wave at him, so while I was going down he cut “I LOVE YOU” from a white paper and was putting it on the window. I melted right there. And there were many of that kind of moments. That is why I guess we were together much longer than with any of men I met so far. As one wise woman said - men come and go, but diamonds stay with us forever. There were left couple of them after we separated, including a lot of good memories.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

What Happens In Vegas Stays In Vegas

Nothing yet. But I have been invited there by my another date. His type of job says executive management, I guess same kind of BS job where people do nothing and get paid more than engineer dealing with real problems. At this point I realized that less you work more you get paid. So I’m expecting some kind of corporate guy in nice cloth, nice car and busy with his Blackberry. Honestly not my type of men. He is at least good looking and was very nice over the phone and me being young and beautiful I am going with my friend there. Having been given how to spend the best vacation in Vegas I will try to use them all and come back all refreshed and satisfied with my trip.

Amazing, to me it seems like an oasis in the middle of desert. Until I have seen it. It would be totally unacceptable for a girl to travel too meet with a guy in my culture, but I’m here, in a different country and should play by the rules established here. Have to say that being a sugarbabe is not an easy job. Great shows, musicals and best restaurants- who does not want it all? I don’t know what excites me more: my new date or my trip to Vegas. But it’s definitely something that I love to do.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Why Do Men Lie

All of us lie. Deliberately, unintentionally, for good, for bad some time in a lifetime we all lie. Just thinking which one is better- many small or one big lie? Neither of them is good, but I personally agree that a lie for good that can save lives is worth and should be done considering the situation. I don’t know was it good or not, but my friend got into a net called marriage in one of those for “good” called lies. She met a man that was smart enough to tell he that he was 39 while he was almost 46 just to date her. My poor friend thought he was just not in a good shape and believed him. Three months later they got married, six months after she found out the truth, but it was too late. Let me tell you, my friend is 26 years young, turning 27. Still young.

So I met the guy and didn’t like him. People think of me as a divorce attorney who wants everybody get divorced. But hey, I don’t get any profit out of it! I am just trying to help people. I just don’t like when people lie to me and if I see someone else lying it makes me upset. And in this case I would understand my friend, but she even doesn’t love him. Feeling secure? No! He doesn’t have a house, even a car. It’s hard to imagine a person in America not having a car. There is even a saying about American people living in their cars. Do you think she would not date and marry him if she knew his real age? I don’t think so. It’s natural- people age and as the time passes they are given certain number. I can’t recall my last big or small lie, but I definitely have one. The only thing I hope my next date will not lie to me about having HIV.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Would I Ever Date A Woman

My last trip to jewelry store brought me some intriguing acquaintances. A middle aged woman approached me, she was very well dressed and very beautiful. “You want that ring dear?”, she asked as coming my way. I was immediately on a “be careful” mode and since I saw she wasn’t an employee there and obviously not my mom or friend her tone and question distracted me. She gave me couple of compliments about my looks saying it was unusual to meet an Asian girl in this state. An invitation for cup of coffee, business card and hint about that ring being mine was a bit overwhelming. It was obvious she wanted me to spend the night or two with her in her place.

Crazy idea came to me, I wanted to experience how it is being with woman, especially if she is a sugarmomma. Not the compensation but the excitement of being kissed by woman was intriguing me. I wished the only thing- she was a man, especially since my sugar daddy left me for work in Saudi Arabia.

I wanted someone to take care of me and Rose was so nice to me and called me next day inviting to a pool party. I have to admit she was very strong and possessive woman. All of her friends were nice and friendly to me, but I was feeling the eyes telling “Look what Rose found now. Poor child, she needs some upgrade and furs”. And I really felt like a soaked bird, losing it’s furs.

I suppose I could expect new furs and golden cage. But I realized with the first touch she gave me- not me, but my body reacted and I was covered with goose pumps. I really like men. No I love men and prefer being loved by men only. Another proof that opposites do attract.

Friday, October 3, 2008

What Do Men Want

Have you ever seen a great movie and great play of Mel Gibson in “What do women want”? I ask the same question myself thinking about men. What do they really want? Usually they want things contrary to what they verbalize. It gets harder when they don’t verbalize at all. Would it be right to say you can expect all kinds of surprises from that kind of person. And those surprises are not always a box with beautiful pearls or vacation ticket to Hawaii.

Our relationship was going pretty well when I saw him online, and definitely not working for some charity organization. He was rather looking for someone else. I was mad. He was fooling me for couple of weeks telling he just working and “that” thing is always on. The moment of truth eventually came to our table as well and there was not way for him to come out from it. So he said I was pushing him too much and he still wants to take his time. Then tell me that! Tell me what you want, and our interests might match. Well, if not in everything but in most things it works. I still do not believe that men are from Mars and women are from Venus. Men are from Earth and women are from earth too, we even share same DNA, walk on two feet and pretty much look alike.

So what does make us so different? Hormones, society that expects us to behave certain way or politicians? Usually it’s hard to combine everything in one when it comes to the relationships. If your boyfriend is handsome and young, then he is dumb or poor, if rich and smart, then he is old and ugly and many other variations in local stores. So pick whatever you like. But what we, women have to do once we find that all together man to keep him by our side. What do that men want?

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Dating A Shorter Guy

Same place where I have met a lot of nice people one day I’m receiving a letter from a man without a picture. Usually if they don’t have pictures there is a note stating a supply of picture via some other resources. He did not mention any of those. I do not consider myself shallow, but I did want to see how he looked like. Week later I saw a picture in his profile. First thing I have noticed was his big nose, and believe it or not I always had a respect for people with big noses. I just have a feeling that an owner of big nose must be a nice person. Two conversations over the phone made me believe in my theory even more. Being an attorney he knew to speak the right thing and was very truthful. The first date we had was a very nice restaurant I liked and he let me pick that. I was never one of those girls who have a list of restaurants they go only and they always want to be the one who picks. I prefer man to take charge in that department.

He arrived earlier or maybe on time, but I was late ( last date I had I was early for twenty minutes and did not know what to do). He was sitting at the table and I went there without him to come and inviting me. We had a wonderful food and conversation went well. Certainly after ten minutes of first glance you know if you would like to have a second date or not. Doubts came to me after we stood up. He was much shorter than me. I got embarrassed as we were walking though the tables. He was very nice and polite and I was concerned about my face, specifically my facial expression. I did not want to hurt the guy and show my embarrassment on my face.

I am 5’6 and his profile details were telling 5’6 as well, so I did not wear heels and still he was much shorter than me. He did not call me, but wrote me a note asking if I want to have another date. Two days later I got sick and when I told him that he asked me if I don’t want to see him again I can tell him that honestly and he will understand. I felt really bad for the guy. I assumed he had that situation before. I don’t know if it is women who feel more secure behind the tall guy or him thinking nobody wants a short guy. While I was sick my ex called me asking for a second chance and since I loved him dearly and missed him a lot, the answer was positive. I don’t know if I was lying to myself or just hoping he had changed but I wanted to love him again forgetting all those short and strange guys. So our first short date was the last date.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

One Of The Reasons Of Divorce Is Marriage

As I promised you earlier that I will talk about my ex-husband and all those family issues. Psychotherapists talk about all kinds of issues today, they even create issues that are not issues. But is you think they are the main issues themselves. Divide the word psychotherapist into three parts Psycho- the- rapist and you will see that the only issue is themselves.

Not that I don’t like them, they truly serve to our society and try to make it mentally healthier, just waiting when it’s all will work. Anyway, back to my own issues that overload my brain box. It has been almost 6 years and by now I can assure you that I am over it and can provide 98% truthful information. He was young and handsome when we just met. We were friends for almost a year and his best friend became my best friend, I will talk about him in the section of my best friends

Women have intuition that most of the species lack, and with the help of the same sense I felt he wanted to date me himself when other friend was introducing me his friends as potential that I would consider to date. Time passes by, he keeps quiet. One cold February evening he invites me to his apartment. Being friends for so long with both of them I have been to their places on various occasions, this time was very special. I did not know about it however. I had no doubt of other people coming. 20:30 we were alone, my body trembles under the warm sweater. Wonderful dinner, movie that none of us is watching. Oh, I forgot I had an ice-cream! Believe me, it was part of the plan.