When The Lights Go Down

The circus begins. Corteo. It was a wonderful experience. The feeling of sublimation will keep me on my toes for a long time at least for a month. I will remember the performance forever. I have never thought the circus can be so exciting. I always used to love opera and ballet. I was sitting with my mouth opened and sometimes eyes closed when acrobats were jumping with the ropes. There are not enough words to describe how great it was.

One of the exciting moments was when my love held my hand and whispered that he loves me into my ears. Each performance of acrobats was telling a love story. When a ladder dancer was balancing himself on a two legged ladder trying to reach for the angel who was watching him from above, isn’t that love? Finally he reaches her and she takes him with herself to heaven.

Giant, little people, mysterious village people come to the Dead Clown’s funeral. His four former loves in life dance on the chandeliers that hang above his bed. The dance is graceful and full of love. Or is it me who sees love everywhere? At least next to me.

How To Find Love When You Are Sick

Here I am with my stuffy nose and big head looking for some humanity from people in white gowns. “It’s a bacterial influenza and if you take these antibiotics and do all my orders- you’re going to be fine in just a week.” He prescribed four tablets for me to take. Only four tablets which I will have to take two days. Are you kidding me?! I’ve been sick almost two weeks and that is all you can give me?! Four tablets.

I was very confused and I guess I wanted some more attention rather than just a piece of paper. Some would say it’s not the right time to flirt when you are having the flu and don’t really fully understand what is going on. Not me. I take total responsibility for my actions committed in Jackson hospital in Miami on these cold stuffy evenings. I went there during the day, of course. Just wanted to make it look more romantic.

This young doctor was from Cyprus and surprisingly knew a lot about my culture and country. Hard to be sweet and flirt in my condition but you have to do whatever it takes to find your love or just a date for next Friday evening. “Oh, really? I don’t think so. I’ve been so sick that antibiotics are not the only thing I need to get better at the moment.”

Then you don’t have to do anything but watch. Don’t stare at him with those red, blurry eyes- try to make them at least a little bit sexy. He said he has to go and check his schedule and was back in less than one minute. He said Friday he was working the night shift but Saturday evening he was absolutely free. “Well, I guess it worked for me.”, I said slowly. Since it was Thursday I had two days to get better taking those pills he gave me. Two days exactly.

Pioneers Of Online Dating

With the boom of online dating in the 90s I didn’t stay aside of the picture. I had to find a virtual boyfriend, date him, fall in love with him and marry him. Anyway, it wasn’t that hard. I posted my picture and wrote some basics about me and started receiving letters from members of the opposite sex. One of the two keys to get a lot of responses as I learned was to take a good picture with a smiling face and write good and positive things about yourself. I just couldn’t remember any negative things about myself. At least at that moment. Who cares, good impression was my priority. Anyway, I met a very sweet guy from Turkey, who originally was from Kazakhstan

He was doing his Masters there and was missing his home, friends and needed a nice girl like me to talk to on a lonely evening. We exchanged letters almost every day, chatted on weekends and he used to call me every two weeks. After six months we knew each other better than my friends I have spent years with. He wrote about his love in a poem I still keep in my mind. Sweet seventeen…

A year passes by and he visits me in my country during his summer vacation. It was my most romantic date I ever had. Until now. Are all women like this or only me? I say that one day I’ll be eighty something and sitting on my terrace and watching the sunset and remembering my most romantic date I have ever had.

My city. I didn’t recognize it, I just couldn’t. I was flying on the same streets I used to take a walk on. I couldn’t consume any food, I had to chew it and I didn’t have time for that. I was just sipping juice. And love. Those two things kept me on my feet or wings. The rose he gave me was the most tender thing my lips ever touched. Oh, about lips. The kiss he gave me made me lose my consciousness and the law of gravity wasn’t working on me. There is at least one man in each woman’s life that she regrets letting go of. He is the one in mine. When it was just too much of happiness I just couldn’t take it and maybe will think about it sitting on my terrace years later.

The Keys To Successful Relationship

Love. It can be the reason you are in relationship, but it also can be one of the reasons of breaking up. How come? Easily. The consequences of love are tremendous and devastating. Jealousy is the biggest reason of dramas, tragedies and sometimes even divorce. To keep love and be in happy, peaceful and successful relationship I just decided to share with my experience. However, not so many people learn from other’s mistakes, in order to learn and remember you have to make that mistake yourself. Still I hope there are really smart people who will think twice and remember my tips before doing or saying something that could cause irreversible effects and hurt loved one’s heart.

1. Give space to each other. It will help to keep the feeling of missing each other all the time.
2. Do not forget to thank him/her for the things they do for you or towards the relationship and well being of two of you.
3. Pay attention to details. Perfection is not achievable goal, but we are not pursuing it. Just as making sure that he has hot coffee while he is working or she has her favourite chocolate in one of the kitchen drawers is a big deal.
Love itself builds on non-forgettable details. So let’s work on it.

4. Distinguish roles in your relationship. Let him be a man and enjoy being woman yourself. Or other way around. Being a woman has it’s own advantages and every woman discovers it around the age of 14-16. Some women forget about that and start to control a man, which doesn’t lead anywhere. When men try to control, I just say simple “Ok”, let him enjoy his patriarchal role and do my own way. And everybody is happy.
5. Always be honest. Trust him/her and do not let other people to get involved in your personal life and ruin it. If you stop trusting him/her try to talk or move on. Just be honest with yourself first.
6. Respect each other. His/her friends, family and their lifestyle.
7. Money issue is one of the biggest cause of conflicts. The ways how person spends the money he has earned can gain him respect or contrary. Unfortunately we live in a materialistic world and everything costs money,

How To Spend Thanksgiving If You Are Alone

The reason we celebrate Thanksgiving goes back to the ship “Mayflower” and the people who came on it. I came to this country two years ago on a British airways plane. I bet tickets at the time of the Mayflower were much cheaper than British airline’s. Anyway, since I live here now I feel I’m obliged to celebrate Thanksgiving. I have my own stuff to thank god for such as the people in my life but the problem is I’m alone.

So I purchased tickets to Oregon and from there to Montana. Might not be the best idea at the end of November to be buying tickets but I heard when it’s cold people want to be close to each other (physically) and all kinds of warm feelings. Being such an adventurer and always looking for love I cannot miss such an opportunity this coming winter.

I will post my whole report after I hunt for some tough men in cold places.
So watch out, men!

Interracial Dating

I would say it all depends on the location. I don’t think you will encounter such a thing in let’s say Alabama as often as in South Florida or some other metropolitan areas. I was one of the people being charmed by exotic men.

At the same time they find me exotic as well. Not so many Asian people around here. I just can’t help preferring mulatto men. They are so handsome, well-built and passionate lovers. At least the ones I have met. I had no boring moment with 2 men I dated in a period of a year. Each of them have introduced me to the things I didn’t know before. New drinks, food, entertainment and different system of values. I felt how free spirited my men were and I started feeling the same.

Unfortunately interracial dating can face it’s dead end when the family, community you live in and friends influence you more than 50% of your decisions. Some people give up so easily on the way to the happiness, and I wasn’t one of them. You get confused when you don’t know what you want- I knew. I just wanted to be happy. If a person can make me happy, other factors like age, race, nationality and religion do not make any difference to me. Time was passing by and I guess I had my own expectations according to my own culture, maybe I was expecting being kidnapped and married. Nothing was happening. My man was passionate, caring, loving but didn’t want to kidnap me. In other words to marry me.

So all my defense I was building against the society didn’t have to be used. I realized that my black men were scared to death of the commitment as any other white or Asian men. So that proved me that there is no difference between men at least. They are all afraid of the ring that will chain them to one single woman, kids, meeting parents and speaking publicly. In a closing I have to admit that there are no any specific tips how to date outside of your race, culture and street. Just be yourself and one day you will find someone who loves you just for you.

Hidden Skeletons On The Skeletons

Dating a police officer is not an easy thing I would say. First of all his day starts at 4 o’clock in the morning, while I go to bed an hour later. I cried on our first date. Why? Because he took me to the movie about firefighters who died on 9/11 in New York. It was a great movie, but not on a first date.

Couple weeks later I took him to Bodies Exhibition. I was studying human anatomy at that time so wanted to combine pleasure and use. So I had my revenge. Can’t say that our dates were full of romance and love flying in the air. The other way round, they seemed dry and dull. I wasn’t expecting the greatest entertainment in the world from him, maybe some cop jokes.
I remember one of them. Radio station. Dj is talking: “Now we are starting our evening show and the first song “Come together” is devoted to our dear police officers, which in their language means “jump in the back seat of my car, usually handcuffed.”

One day I was so proud and happy I was dating a police officer when we stopped by Blockbuster to rent a movie for the evening and a huge truck blocked the way to enter or exit the parking lot. So my boyfriend comes out from his car and gives him a ticket. I didn’t know they can give tickets when they are on a date and not on duty. The truck driver was very angry but I hope he understood that road is not only his and even if there are no police cars around, one of the guys with a cute girl might be an officer on a date.

It didn’t last long, however he was pretty open minded in changing him, he even sat with me on the floor to eat in one of the fancy Japanese restaurants. Our first shopping trip together was one of the last issues I couldn’t take. I picked a shirt for him and he went to try it. It was so good on him, on his fit, muscular body. I almost fainted when he turned around to show how it was from the back. It was a very light linen shirt, so I saw a huge tattoo on his back. His both shoulders and up to lower back. No, I haven’t seen him naked until that day. I was disgusted and couldn’t talk to him anymore.